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Have you ever sat down and reflected on who God is? I mean, really considered who the Lord is and all He has done for us and the world around us? I personally fall extremely short of doing enough of this sort of deep reflection. The more I draw closer to Christ and center my life around Him, the more I realize I have barely scratched the surface of the awesomeness of God.

Intellectually, I have understood most of my life that the Lord is amazing. In the Bible, God is called many things, and I could easily rattle off a whole list of those names and attributes. But to truly understand even one of the names of God? I mean, seriously and thoroughly understand a single one? I could spend an entire lifetime studying and trying to comprehend and still miserably fail.

Don’t get me wrong. I get choked up every time I try to talk about what the Lord has done in my life. Honestly, I stink at offering public praise because I can’t even speak when I start to consider all the ways my Heavenly Father has blessed my life. God is my everything and has often been my only friend and source of strength during life’s darkest times. I wouldn’t have survived this long without clinging desperately to Jesus or being strengthened daily by the Holy Spirit.

But truly understand and appreciate who God is and how He loves me and has cared for me? My finite brain could never handle it all. Ultimately, my brain is pretty regularly blown as I seek the Lord and strive to know Him more.

I do have to admit, though, that one of my ultimate favorite names of God is Emmanuel: God with us. How awesome is that? Take a second and really consider what this name means. We often have this image of God where He is far above us, ruling from a distant throne. In all actuality, though, He is right here with His people every second of every day. Loving them. Guiding them. Protecting them. Providing for them. Working diligently behind the scenes for their betterment.

God might be the Most High and ruler over the entire universe, but He isn’t a distant Father. He’s never too busy. Our concerns are never too insignificant. In fact, He is always actively involved in every single aspect of our lives. He goes through our every triumph, every trial, and everything in between–right beside us! Our Lord promises that He will never leave us nor forsake us. How insanely comforting is that?

I remember the first time I started to understand this aspect of God. It completely changed how I saw my life and my everyday struggles. Looking back, I can now see clearly that even during my darkest hours, I was never truly alone. Even when my friends and family had abandoned me, my Heavenly Father never did. When I cried, He cried. When I was in pain, He held me close and understood exactly what I was enduring. When my heart was breaking, His heart was, as well. When my world felt like it was collapsing in on me, He was right there, holding me together and whispering words of encouragement to my disheartened spirit.

Knowing how close the Lord stayed close to me over all of these years is a huge comfort. Today’s and tomorrow’s trials and tribulations no longer seem impossible or horrifying. My God was with me before, so He will assuredly remain with me, no matter what the present or future holds. There is no need to fear or worry or doubt. Emmanuel will walk the rest of life’s journey with me…no matter what is waiting for me around the next bend.

  • When have you felt the most alone?
  • Looking back, can you now see God’s hand in any of those difficult situations?
  • How does knowing that the Lord is “God with us” change your perspective in life?
© 2021 Amanda R. Dollak

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I was sitting here tonight, contemplating an empty page. Not only an empty blog post but an empty canvas as I face a brand new year. At the beginning of 2020, I was filled with such hope and enthusiasm. I felt like 2020 was bound to be a fresh, vastly different chapter in my life and nothing could stand in my way! I was going to be bold and face the many obstacles standing between me and where I felt the Lord leading. I entered 2020 with a ferocity and faith I haven’t known in years. Little did I know, the new year would prove much more trying than I originally thought.

Truthfully, I could sit here all night and rehash the countless sorrows, hardships, trials, and disheartening events of 2020. I could spend the entire new year lamenting the difficulties of living in the middle of a pandemic (which continues to feel like it will never end). However, it is a new year. It’s time to reset my mind and my focus. It is time to once again look to the new year with renewed hope and determination. Regardless of what lies ahead, I yearn to make the most of 2021.

Every New Year’s Eve, I choose a word or short phrase that sums up the direction God is leading me towards in the new year. Last year’s phrase was “be bold” . . . something I have struggled with far too much in recent years. Anxiety, fear, and doubt have been my worst enemies lately, and I could hear the Holy Spirit repeatedly urging me to step out, let go, and break out of my comfort zone in many areas of my life. In the end, this proved extra difficult to do with the coronavirus wreaking havoc all around me. Still, I embraced this theme and accomplished multiple goals in 2020, which I originally feared would never, ever happen in my lifetime.

Now that 2020 has ended, I will continue to take this newly discovered boldness with me and build upon it. I’m eager to see what the Lord has in store for me as 2021 dawns, all shiny and new, sparkling with endless possibility! After much prayer and reflection, I have decided the theme for my life in 2021 will be “all things.” At first, “all things” seems like a strange phrase to describe a year. It is kind of vague and isn’t exactly exciting. It doesn’t conjure any spectacular mental pictures or wouldn’t inspire any awesome motivational posters. In fact, at first glance, “all things” seems pretty dull and downright confusing.

Nevertheless, “all things” is the perfect phrase for cultivating the proper attitude and perspective in 2021. And I will explain to you exactly why:

(1) All things are (and should always be placed) in God’s hands. Frankly, I worry too much. I drive myself crazy trying to always have all the answers and to handle all the chaos in life. I fight battles that, if I were honest with myself, aren’t even mine to fight. And those I should fight, I often foolishly attempt to wage on my own.

The phrase “all things” will remind me in 2021 that I’m not in this alone. God’s got this. All of this. In all actuality, He already has it all figured out and planned for. All of this stress and nonsense is unnecessary. I have an all-knowing, all-powerful, always-present, ever-loving Father right here beside me in all things. He goes before me. He has my back. He knows and plans for all of my needs. Nothing ever takes Him by surprise. I can take comfort in this as I lay all things in His very capable hands.

(2) God can use all things–good AND bad–for His glory and our betterment. Romans 8:28 (KJV) promises “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” During a year like 2020, I was tempted many times to just give up and wallow in all the negativity around me, as well as the discouragement and self pity welling up inside of me. It became easier and easier to fall for the lie that the Lord had abandoned me in the middle of my darkest hour simply because I was surrounded by difficulties in every direction.

Thankfully, though, each time I found myself wrestling with these doubts, the Holy Spirit would remind me of past difficulties in my life and how days, weeks, and even years later, I finally could see that God worked through the heartache, pain, and even trauma, and used all of it for a greater purpose. We may never completely understand nor see the big picture. But we can trust that our Heavenly Father is good and loving and, as such, will use all things for good.

(3) We should be thankful in all things. 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (KJV) reminds us that : “In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” I don’t know about you, but I’m not always the best at this. During the good and plentiful times, I’m always quick to thank the Lord and count my blessings. But when times get tough–I mean, really tough? Well, my first instinct is “let’s throw Amanda the biggest pity party in the history of mankind.” I mean, the why-me’s and the what-else-could-go-wrong’s come spewing out of me like you wouldn’t believe.

I’m not too proud of this side of myself. Of course, life’s been hard for me frequently over the years. As such, I have plenty to justify this attitude. But I also have just as much–actually much, much more–to be grateful for. It’s time to start pruning all of this negativity out of my life. I must start seeing all things at all times, not just the negative ones, so I can remember that I always, always, always have something to thank God for.

(4) But most importantly, we can do all things in God. As part of building my boldness in 2020, I decided to try to eat, sleep, and breathe Philippians 4:13 (KJV): “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” After years of struggling with fear, doubt, anxiety, and self image issues, I couldn’t take it anymore. I felt like there was a major disconnect between who I was and who the Lord meant me to be simply because I never felt like I was enough. I felt stuck on the outside, looking in at my own life, cut off from the full and effective existence that my Father has longed to give me for years. And I’ll readily admit that it was a cold, lonely, heart-breaking place to be.

It’s continuing to be a long battle of trying to reprogram my brain to find my worth, not in the approval of others or what I can accomplish in and of my own power, but in God and in who I am as His child. I’m a flawed human being stuck in a pretty flawed body and from a seriously flawed past. I’ll never come close to hitting the mark, let alone the unrealistic expectations that others (and even myself) have set for me. My fear, anxiety, and doubt have been partially right all along. I can’t do all things. Not on my own anyway. But I have the ultimate secret weapon: Christ! Jesus gives me everything I need to do all things. If I’m meant to do it, it’s going to happen. God’s got me. No failure, hurdle, kink in the plan, or delay is going to stop me if it’s the Lord’s plan. In Christ, I am unstoppable: I can do all things!

I hope that as 2021 unfolds before me, I will keep the phrase “all things” in the forefront of my mind. May the Lord use this theme to transform my life and to continue to heal me. I long to be close to God and to cultivate a life that is wholly centered around Him. I have no idea what 2021 may bring, but I choose to have faith and trust in my Heavenly Father. He will get me through ALL THINGS.

  • How has 2020 changed you?
  • What positive things are you taking with you into the new year?
  • What are some of the goals you hope to achieve in 2021?

© 2021 Amanda R. Dollak

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I’m feeling quite sad and emotional today. I found out last night that an old friend lost his battle to cancer recently. He had fought almost continuously for two years, but he had been doing a lot better the last time I had checked in with him. However, the chemo and radiation therapy had decimated his immune system, so he couldn’t fight off a minor illness.

Since I heard the news, I have been flip-flopping through a variety of emotions. I’m in shock that he passed away so suddenly — without warning. Grief is bombarding me because the world lost an amazing individual. I get angry at times, too, because Jimmie was the sweetest, kindest person and didn’t deserve any of this. I’ve been filled with sadness for his family . . . for his friends . . . for Jimmie’s unfinished life. Nothing about cancer is fair or natural, and he has joined the growing ranks of my friends and family who have battled and lost against this horrible disease.

My only consolation right now is that Jimmie is a man of God. His faith was strong. He never wavered in his love for the Lord even in his darkest hours. Someday I know I will see him again.

I just hope that when that day comes I will be able to truthfully say that I honored his memory by striving to be more like him. More generous and kind. More full of faith. More brazen and bold in the face of adversity. More brimming with happiness and joy. More focused on what is truly important in life. And more determined to live each day to the fullest, no matter what may be lying around the corner.

Jimmie, you may not know it, but you changed the lives of so many people — including me — with how you faced your terrifying battle. You showed us strength, courage, hope, and determination like we had never known before. Even though you can no longer be with us, THIS will remain with us the rest of our lives. Our world is a better place simply because you never lost your faith in God until the very end. We will carry a piece of you — your heart and your faith — with us always.

 

© 2014 Amanda R. Dollak